Struggle •

I look at the degree,
In a pretty box on my wall,
It reflects a bachelors,
But was it worth it all?

I’m trying to move forward,
And find my new path,
I hope it wasn’t a waste of time,
All these years worth of class…

Struggle •

Searching for a high,
I cannot reach,
enough is enough,
they never teach.

They take your money,
and they take your soul,
when does it stop?
when you're no longer whole.

Putting pieces together,
half by half,
can't figure myself out,
where is my path?

I can't save myself,
lost in a dream,
"I have another dollar"
says inside, the fiend.

If there's a will there's a way,
as I come crashing down again,
nothing much left of me,
just nausea, thoughts and my pen.

Struggle •

I’m really nothing special,
but I’d like to be.

Struggle •

her blood pressure touched the sky,
and she kissed those within reach,
behind the fake smile,
with Colgate white strip bleached teeth.

Struggle •

The piercing sharp blade,
Gutted deep into my lip,
As I saw a white line,
Attached to a ship.

The line budged, tugged and pulled,
But the metal would not slip.
How was I so easily fooled?
As more blood began to drip.

I swam up and down,
And even left and right,
Despite my attempts to escape,
I would not win this fight.

I slowly approached the air,
Continuously gasping for water,
The tare burned my mouth,
Mentally preparing me for my slaughter.

As I reached the surface,
I pondered my purpose,
But I flipped and I flopped,
Begging to be free.
The human reeled me in, As I dangled upon the line
Looked me in the eyes,
And said “It’s not your time.”

My mouth yanked,
And the hook was released,
Back into the water I was thrown,
But this near death experience,
Left me internal peace.

Struggle •

I don’t remember your face,
But it’s not your fault,
Too much I drank,
Shots without halt,

Blurred vision I saw,
Couldn’t speak clearly,
You dived in raw,
I struggled dearly.

You thrusted my body,
Clenched me to your hip,
Screamed and I budged,
But couldn’t escape your grip.

Hand over my mouth,
Tears streamed down my face,
Gasping for air,
You increased the pace.

Faster and harder,
I was to weak,
Soon you would finish,
All over me and leak.

I don’t remember your face,
But you haunt me,
Fingers playing with my body,
Like I was your toy dolly.

Sweat of your pores,
Continuous huff of your breath,
Only inside me once,
But it feels like you never left.

Struggle •

the mask
couldn't hide
e v e r y t h i n g

Struggle •

The nights became colder,
and the days slipped by
daydreaming of the life she use to have

Struggle •

I clenched my fists and cursed the sky,
longing to release my mind

Struggle •

This game called life?
I wanted to live for me,
and stop dying for others.

Struggle •

some people are born lucky,
for those,
who are like me,
we have to work for what we want.

Struggle •

one more slip,
until she fell,
but rose above all odds,
the angel from hell.

Struggle •

I had a bad day;
I let others control my happiness.

Struggle •

I didn't see an entrance sign to enter life,
I suppose I won't see an exit sign either.

Struggle •

I inched
and I crawled,
only to be swallowed whole.

Struggle •

wine tastes sweeter,
when drank without regret.

Struggle •

force
a
smile
to
drain
my
soul