June 2021


• It's been a minute. Today is going as smooth as it could I suppose. Still learning to TRUST THE PROCESS but whatever lol.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. <3


• My first shift went well, even though i'm obnoxiously tired. It's so humid here and the sky is so gray, longing for sunshine. I learned that people actually eat cicadas. Apparently cicadas also share common ancestory to lobsters and shrimp. So basically, the FDA is warning people not to eat cicadas if they have a seafood allergy. Apparently cicadas also only come out from underground every 17 years. Strange. Another fun/random thing I learned today is NASA launched baby squids and microscopic animals to space. Supposedly the goal is to understand animal and microbe effects of spaceflight...
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. <3


• It's amazing how much more I enjoy piano music when i'm feeling utmost emotional. Feels like it brings out a different side of internal bliss or healing in a different way sort of speak. Lucifer was playing the piano and it struck a chord for me to finally write. Kinda wish I still actively played the piano, but I wasn't never really good at it. Some people are just born natural talented musicians, but I am not one of them. Honestly, I also don't have much rhythm either. I'm pretty much just your average joe in everything I feel like. I'm good at some things, but i'm not great in anything particular.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. <3

I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
Current mood: radiohead - creep


• I'll update later. But so far, it's been a good day.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. <3


• Well June has begun and I can't stop thinking how I feel that i'm in the same place I was last year. I know technically i'm not but it feels like it. A lot has changed, and I hope in the long run it's all for the better. I have a book I recieved in a package about two weeks ago that i've neglected to read, or let alone open. I think i'm finally going to do that today. The plus side of today is that it finally stopped raining (it's literally rained here the last three days and i'm looking forward to seeing some sunshine). The creature has woken up since I began writing this and I can feel the negativity spieling throughout the house. *sigh.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. <3